July

sillydumb's Journal

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__ runaway ____:.x

I know you don't care though you say to be, sometimes love is just too little for you to sacrifice. I never want to doubt because love is trust, but each compliment seems too true to believe.

I hate my sensitiveness because I'm used to avoid, that I never want to analyse your words so deep when you don't mean them. You're never clear with your kindness' confusion, I know it better sometimes.

Where hopes are not executed, there's always a lonely soul of a foolish man, waiting in vain. I'm living with slight of fantasize dreaming and stoning all for you.

Sometimes I do get confused by myself, just close my eyes and refuse to think. For a moment I dream I can do wonders, I wander to the maze of lovelorn.

So I draw a wall of spikes, soon I start roaming in thousand tears. The tales we used to believe tells me you've more than what I want. I miss you more than ever.

Tuesday, 02 August, 2005

__ because you're gone ____:.x When we used to be close, you took me to a dream of heaven tour; I lived my life with confident, and your existence drove me to efficient. I stayed up for you, while you rewarded me with smiles and more. As the main source of light, I got addicted to you. Sometimes I got a little disappointment; sometimes more than just that. I kept a little silence, because I couldn't bear to ignore. I hated my sensitiveness, for everything you said were accounted for. I hated to prepare, for one day you would leave. It seemed like you were here, but you weren't. It just seemed like you were gone, but I heard your voice. Wednesday, 27 July, 2005

__ our dreams __x:

It starts with all the sleepy days; nights spent are longer than usual. You smile like an angel but sexier. Sometimes I think a little more about you. I've never seen eyes as beautiful as yours; they twinkle through the darkness and light up my life. I'm yours, I'm all about you and I'm striving all because of you.

The pace of life you create is a vacuum world. I seem to walk like an astronomer, I'm moving towards you. If distance is a barrier, we might not reach each other forever; and if time is a restriction, we might turn zombies one day.

I'm enjoying every part of you. I'm listening to your voice in your heart through everything you've done for me. I'm having fetish for your complexion from head to toe. I'm fighting the urge to want to hug and feel you, because you're so irresistible.

Wednesday, 13 July, 2005